Woke up briefly in the wee hours, after some fitful hours of weird dreams and sweats and all the delightful things that accompany a migraine, and felt James breathing deeply beside me. That comforted me, as it always does. After ten years of marriage, I still sometimes delight in laying awake beside him watching him as he sleeps. So I glance drowsily over and look at ... a foot. Glance down the bed to see his head on the other end. I had to cover my mouth not to giggle out loud. Last night I snored. I often do that lately, especially when allergies and a migraine are coming on. He told me ( oh so politely) that he was going to sleep on the couch last night, to avoid my snoring and to hopefully give me a better sleep. He established me in our room , lights down, the tv droning on low in the background and a small fan whirring beside me. All the things I need for comfort minus a purring cat or dozing doggy. I took my " migraine cocktail" of migraine meds and dozed off and on. At about 11 he came in quietly, told me half gruffly half kindly to " go to sleep" , turned off the tv , cleaned the junk I had accumulated on the bed and tucked me in. I felt loved and excused his bossy tone and went to sleep, spreading out like I do if he's not in the bed. So I can assume a) he got lonely b) he was worried about me c) the couch was uncomfortable and d) I was snoring too loudly for him to sleep up at the head of the bed with me and e) I had spread out so much he didn't have room anywhere but at the end . I am sure it is combination of all of the above. Which made me feel very loved again. I dozed more and woke up to see a foot a few inches from my face. Almost laughed out loud again. Rolled over. Slept some more. Finally woke again at 8 (freaking a.m!) got up to go potty, take more migraine meds, have a coffee and sneak a few minutes at the computer.
Not sure why these migraines are coming more often again. I'm trying to be a detective and put together any factors that are affecting my body. I have noticed my allergies are acting up a bit. I am drinking less water because I am not used to town water. I'm certainly stressed. And I have the
hell joys of menopause now. Trying to think if I ate anything that is a migraine trigger..hmmm. Okay I'll think later. Right now thinking hurts my brain. Well actually hurts my head, because apparently our brain doesn't register pain. Learned that from a CSI show. Not that I completely believe them. I'm pretty sure my brain hurts. And possibly my hair and fingernails. But I'll be okay. Really ( staggering to the couch , falling dramatically onto it)
Love ya!!!
3 comments:
Good Morning Linda,
I was thinking as I read your post(I do that sometimes) haha no really~~it brought to mind something I read many years ago by Chuck Swindoll can not remember the name of the book anymore or the whole of it but one thing that stuck with me was his advice to folks that suffer as you~~He said always look upward and outward~~ in other words when this shall we call it black cloud? thing seems to want to get a grip on you PRAY tell close trusted love ones to pray for you too and look outwards for who to help and how to help them ~~simplistic advice I admit but I do know a few folks over the years where this helped immensely and with you natural bent towards humour I know that if you found someone who was not doing too well one way or another you could boost them so much. You are precious and soooo much fun. love and ((hugs))Roxanne
Ohh you are sooo right, sometimes the "simplistic" answer is the right answer. I don't know the answers to the whys of all the stuff that happens in this life, but I do know that when I reach out God is there , theres that glimmer of light in the corner, urging me to reach out for it. I don't even have to run or jump, I just have to reach out and it's there. Kind of hard to put into words but I think you know what I mean. Bless you!!!
PS I poked my head out of my cave today and the sun was shining and my head wasn't hurting and the guys even convinced me to toddle ( yeah I'm toddling these days) out for a lovely walk. It smelled like spring!!
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